This day

Today was that day. The day I've been waiting for since Grier was born. When I was pregnant with her I was equally excited and panicked at the thought of there being two little people to look after. I didn't expect it to be easy to meet everyone's needs but I think we've been doing pretty well.But the wheels kind of came off today. To be fair it's been a tough weekend with Brodie back to hospital for breathing problems, he likely has croup and we haven't had much sleep. Grier has had a rough couple of weeks and awake time seems to equal annoyed time and I'm not sure why. I'm not sure if it's teething or something else. All of these things combined meant that by bedtime I was literally sliding down the door outside Brodie's bedroom. This is the hardest job in the world, I have no doubt. Some days I have my mind on expanding their horizons and scaffolding their dreams, and some days it's all I can do to fill their tummies and dry their tears. And some days I am not the Mum I want to be. Like today

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