Last year I ran the Great Scottish Run and threatened to run it again this year. Only I didn't, because I haven't actually been running regularly for a long time. I kind of kept quiet about this years run, but still recieved some good luck text messages on Sunday from people who kept me to my word and thought I would be there.
When I recieved those messages I had a sinking feeling in my stomach, the same feeling as when I'm driving and notice a runner. Especially a runner who looks a bit out of shape, or as if they are working hard, too hard , because they remind me of me. I suspect that even if I ran every day for years I wouldn't feel or look or act like a runner. Because I just feel so out of place and unathletic.
No excuses though, the only one who has avoided those early morning starts and plumped for 20 minutes longer under the duvet is me. I have no idea why what seemed easy last year - getting up and out of runs is such a struggle this year. I know I'm fickle - running 400 miles and 2 half marathons last year was fun then, but I 've done it now. Sure I could go better, faster, longer but do I want to?
I think I need a new challenge, what have you got Tea is the Answer readers? I need to feel that spark again. It will probably help if you tell me that I'll never manage to achieve your challenge, because as well as fickleness, stubborn as a mule rings true here.